I Woke Up Like This - I Side-Eyed God

This morning I side-eyed God. I actually do this a lot because He moves in such an unconventional and non-traditional way. Sometimes I’m thrown by how the Lord operates, specifically with me. This particular week has been challenging to say the least. For starters, my character was attacked in my workplace causing tension on my team. Then I conducted an exit interview with an ex-boyfriend (yes, I do this because I am a complete wreck) so that I could gain more insight into why he decided to leave the company of Reebs; my findings were not all favorable. The financial storm I’m in is becoming unbearable and the pressure seems to be mounting up. I devised a possible solution but that solution requires the participation of another party and this week my first request was denied.

I don’t recall but I don’t believe I have ever woke up with tears in my eyes which lends a new meaning to Bey’s ‘I Woke Up Like This’. So where did the side-eye come in? After I woke up and dried my own tears, my phone buzzed with a text message from a friend requesting prayer because of a storm they are going through.

Really God? You want me to pray for someone else when I’m in a mess myself? How am I going to minister to anybody when it seems I’m unable to minister to and encourage myself? As these questions entered my head the tears came streaming down even more and it was in that instant, I heard the Holy Spirit instruct me to pray for my friend. As I prayed for her, I felt a calmness come over me. Anxiety exited stage left and the tears dried up. After I prayed she continued to text me things that were on her mind and bothering her - she texted me her heart. I heard the Lord speak loud and clear and instruct me on what to write back to her. One of my responses was this:

“The Lord hears you and sees you. One of His many names is El Roi - the God who sees. He sees us in our struggle and He knows exactly what we are facing and going through. Be comforted in knowing that the Lord sees your situation and that He is working it out. Have faith in that and stand firm.”

This morning I side-eyed God because He used me to minister to and encourage someone while simultaneously causing me to minister to myself. Yeah - I Woke Up Like This!

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